Couples in Public

Whenever I see a couple, (any pair whether it be both males, both females or one male one female) I always assume that they are in a beyond-friend zone-and-family zone-relationship. Is it just me?

I guess it happened when I started getting pressured into making myself “presentable” to get a boyfriend. Being in a relationship is not something I want now, probably when I have a job and everything is sort of stable. That would probably be a bit late though. But I am also the “go-with-the-flow” person, so if it happens, it happens. The only time I don’t think of people as a couple is when they are in a group and when they are by themselves (I always assume that they are loners like me). 

It was raining really hard today and there were obviously people sharing umbrellas, as usual I assume they are a couple. This time I felt so lonely. I was walking under my tiny umbrella that doesn’t do anything but let my bag and pants get soaked. Since, I felt lonely I started texting a friend to try to meet up. But she didn’t reply. Then the umbrella started leaking. So in the end, I was that person standing in the rain, half soaked, with a leaking umbrella and trying to get in contact with people they know but no one replies. 

I never felt lonely or moody when I have these thoughts. I don’t know what made today so different to the previous days. Is it because it was raining? There are always those cheesy rain scenes in romance movies. I think so. Or maybe I’m just trying to make myself feel better.

~Lila~

Catching Up with the Mates

I was invited to a friend’s house to catch-up with the crew before we start university and college.

My main reason for going was actually because I like the food her family serves. The first three hours were spent on her Queen sized bed on our phones. Social media. No communication. With the exception of the occasional video sharing and laughing.